Monday Meditation: Finding Purpose in Pain - Shawneda Blog

Monday Meditation: Finding Purpose in Pain

 Being a wife and mother topped my priority list for the last nine years. 
The vision for my life didn't include divorce. 
Yet, here I am. 

In the middle of my thirties
In the midst of returning to school to become a Registered Dietitian 
Technical Communicator
In the midst of learning how to advocate for my daughter
I'm now in the midst of a divorce. 

There have been tears, lamenting, I've questioned things I never thought I'd question
Considered a second attempt at learning how to drink
(Thank you Holy Ghost for stopping me)
The only time I only found relief, when I call on God. 

As things have unfolded over the last twenty four months
I knew things were changing but I kept the faith. 
Hoped against hope, and what I knew and could see.
No details need to be divulged but the end result is, divorce.
I prayed, fasted, and have peace God's plan is bigger than my understanding.
The situation doesn't feel good, the process is SUPER painful 
Some days I want to WILD OUT  

Instead I fight the urges that will lead me
down a road to bitterness and resentment. 
God has a purpose for my pain.
I don't know it yet, but I trust Him.
With everything happening and my inability to understand it all
I have to trust Him to show me the Purpose in the Pain.

1 comment

  1. Powerful insights! I believe that God definitely has a purpose for us in our pain, I believe we are strengthened through it and I believe that he allows it to cut so deep sometimes because we are the walking examples to others on how to live and love like Christ. How we carry our pain is a testament to God. Proud of you through you relying on your strength to not succumb to those things that will hinder the purposeful process. Love u.


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